Yesterday, on the “Day of Atonement” the holiest day of the Jewish year (also known as Yom Kippur), I was baptized again.
Yom Kippur, was the most solemn holy day of all Israelite feasts and festivals because on that day the high priest would perform elaborate rituals to atone for the sins of the people (see Leviticus 16:1-35).
I can’t help but think that there is something special about my deciding to publicly recommit my life to Christ on the most holiest of days. I get excited just thinking about it! I don’t believe in things being coincidental, I only believe in the divine strategies of God.
The first time I was baptized I had no idea what I was doing and had no real expectation of a relationship with Christ. I was probably 15 years old and extremely depressed. No one really understood how depressed I was at that time.
My parents divorced when I was 13 and I was devastated. It rocked my world to the core. I adored my dad, as all little girls do, and the thought of not having him in my life was difficult. It was especially hard, at such a young age, because he decided he wanted a life that didn’t include me and my two sisters.
I was socially awkward and had no coping skills. I was teased horribly by kids in school and became very introverted as a result of the teasing. Hard to believe it now but God has brought me a long way. I’ve always believed in God’s love for me but my life choices were not the best.
It took a lot of prayers and self-reflection to move past the disappointment and hurt. I had to forgive my father, my mother, the kids that teased me and I had to forgive myself; which was difficult for me to do.
My decision to recommit was for me. I wanted God to know that the most important thing in my life is our relationship. I wanted God to know that I know, I’m here only because of His love and the sacrifice of Jesus Christ. That I know I’m covered with His mercy and grace.
When I stepped into the water this time, I wanted to leave all that baggage I had been carrying all those years behind me. Because of His love and goodness, I want to live my life “on purpose” taking in all that He has for me in this life and in the life to come.
I pray you are moving “on purpose” and trust the divine strategies that God has designed for your life.
May Your Steps Fulfill Their Purpose.